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To Grandfather

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brokengod--veins

Published: Dec 2, 2013

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I lost him
in the ruins of his lungs.

Everyday
I go out of myself
looking for him
in the mirror

& autumn eyes
filled with dirt water
is the only resemblance
I struggled
to paint his face
with

Dear grandfather,
I go out looking
for you everyday in the cemetery
hoping your soul
could knock at my eyelids.

I lost everything
in the ruins of your lungs
but your hands 
are the only things
I yearn for.

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Dec. 02, 2013. (Holy shit it's December 0_0)

Uhm...what to say xD

My grandfather died when I was two and up until this day I really miss him. Well, he accompanied my mom and my dad when we were dead homeless and I wouldn't be alive without him. I want him to be more than a faint memory, I want him to be real even though I can't because he's the reason my parents survived that critical year and I just want to thank him.

He died of lung cancer which is why I dread smoking above anything. I hate it when my mom or dad smokes because I see him dying even though I wasn't there as a witness. I'm a very sentimental person, okay? :/