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swear to grace

Journal Entry: Fri Nov 7, 2014, 3:33 PM


So for the past, I don't know, 3 years of being here in Antipolo my life has gone from an irritable insomniac (no duh) to a socially anxious and very, very, very depressed being. Crazy stuff from being bullied to being somewhat ostracized wherever I went to almost taking my life hurdled my way and made my life a living prison, thus journals of short comings and poems that just depress the hell out of me (and probably everyone else too about my condition). But you know what else was crazy? Looking back at all at that as if it happened to someone else. I'm not kidding. When I think about the past I go into an intense malaise and get really depressed and dramatic.

But now I look back and think "oh so that's what it's about." and make up ways if I had a chance to make things different. But then would I make things different if I had the chance now? Nah. I would've learned what I learned if it wasn't for that.

I wasn't able to jot this down but one night I really pushed my parents to let me to this Battle of the Bands event just a few weeks ago in my old school. Now my old school was miles away from Antipolo and transportation was costly and we're flat out trying to get things together, but I haven't seen my old friends in so long and I was so, so miserable that time so I went for it anyway.

For so long I've always wanted to escape Antipolo and come back to the city where I felt I belong. But when I got there, I realized just how much I didn't want to stay there for long anyway. No kidding I had the night of my life and I bonded with my old friends like never before, but it just hit me in the head. I realized that it wasn't the place I wanted to visit but the feeling of nostalgia, the memories I cherished most, what it was like to be happy before I came to Antipolo. When we left the place, I moved on.

Everything just fell into place from there.

My depression faded, I'm not that socially anxious anymore, and as I'm preparing my new schedule for a new semester and the fillers and everything, I just felt happier. I'm one of those people who put meaning to whatever I do or whatever happens to me, and the battle of the bands was it.The new schedule and fillers were it. I am still going to a new uni but I have to make these last months worth it.

It's a new beginning and it's great. It feels great too.

  • Mood: Lazy
  • Listening to: Hello-SHINee X3
  • Reading: Haruki Murakami's Norwegian Wood
  • Watching: my crappy writing coming to life
on the day you were buried
it was warm and sunny out
and little children played all day-
how ironic.

it’s also ironic how they handed
out flowers to your bones
beneath dirt
when they couldn’t do it
with your bones
intact with pumping blood
and warm skin

the cycle of life turning to death
is being thrown at your face,
petals counting off
the days you wasted drunk
with regret wishing
you kissed her

or how you should never
have gave away yourself so easily
so fast

or how you were never
suppose to die
alone

with your heart
tiring itself out from
giving you all the time
you will never get back

the stem bent
toward you
like a big i told you so
with it’s empty head
and shriveled body

flowers.

why flowers?

could’ve been that bottle full of
paper stars you made when
you were seven
or that Little Shirley Beans
record you smashed
the first morning you had
a hangover-

some souvenir to turn
into your own personal
landmark
other than your coffin

because flowers are
a grave for the dead
the same way you’re
a grave for the living

how it just sits there
wilting with you
until the wind blows off
piece by piece
while you stay wilting
in the same spot forever

like grave diggers who are there
because they’re supposed to.

when i stared at that
half-dead, half-naked rose
sitting quietly at your belly
i wondered how she never gave you
one when you were alive

i wasn’t reminded of how
you were loved

but how you lived
without it

who wants flowers
when they’re dead?
to Nat, my own catcher in the rye
11/8/14 [two days until the end of my extended sem break]

hey there. welcome to my new (and depressing) style of writing, dang it. Been here and been writing. But I'm not with the fuck-capital-letters movement now, I just haven't been writing at all recently and being lazy in general and this is how I just have a run through writing when I feel like it after having a couch potato week. I don't know what this is to be honest, but Nat is this character I built inside my head after reading Salinger's Catcher in the Rye and Nat is a lot like Holden in some ways or another.

It's a strange little book, I don't know. Maybe I don't have the right mindset to understand its depth yet but I agree with him on flowers and death. Who the heck actually wants flowers when they're dead? Probably a lot of people but not me, or him. I understand that it's a way to express love and grief but I wouldn't want them to be a waste of nature and just rot there the same way my body does. It's too depressing and wouldn't feel right :/
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NOT DEAD+Sembreak

Journal Entry: Wed Oct 22, 2014, 9:33 AM


Yo! I know that I haven't done ANYTHING in dA for so long and I resent that so much. The first sem of college just ended (THANK GOD) and I have less than 16 days of rotten eggs to celebrate xD

  • Mood: Lazy
  • Listening to: Hello-SHINee X3
  • Reading: Haruki Murakami's Norwegian Wood
  • Watching: my crappy writing coming to life
Sahara by brokengod--veins
Sahara
Hi! Breaking news: I AM NOT DEAD!

Here's a first shot at Photoshop CS6  (digital art in general). I know it could be more but hey there it is xD
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Mhay ghad

Journal Entry: Thu Oct 2, 2014, 5:18 AM


What the eff happened to deviantart? o_o

  • Mood: Lazy
  • Listening to: Hello-SHINee X3
  • Reading: Haruki Murakami's Norwegian Wood
  • Watching: my crappy writing coming to life

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Journal Entry: Fri Nov 7, 2014, 3:33 PM


So for the past, I don't know, 3 years of being here in Antipolo my life has gone from an irritable insomniac (no duh) to a socially anxious and very, very, very depressed being. Crazy stuff from being bullied to being somewhat ostracized wherever I went to almost taking my life hurdled my way and made my life a living prison, thus journals of short comings and poems that just depress the hell out of me (and probably everyone else too about my condition). But you know what else was crazy? Looking back at all at that as if it happened to someone else. I'm not kidding. When I think about the past I go into an intense malaise and get really depressed and dramatic.

But now I look back and think "oh so that's what it's about." and make up ways if I had a chance to make things different. But then would I make things different if I had the chance now? Nah. I would've learned what I learned if it wasn't for that.

I wasn't able to jot this down but one night I really pushed my parents to let me to this Battle of the Bands event just a few weeks ago in my old school. Now my old school was miles away from Antipolo and transportation was costly and we're flat out trying to get things together, but I haven't seen my old friends in so long and I was so, so miserable that time so I went for it anyway.

For so long I've always wanted to escape Antipolo and come back to the city where I felt I belong. But when I got there, I realized just how much I didn't want to stay there for long anyway. No kidding I had the night of my life and I bonded with my old friends like never before, but it just hit me in the head. I realized that it wasn't the place I wanted to visit but the feeling of nostalgia, the memories I cherished most, what it was like to be happy before I came to Antipolo. When we left the place, I moved on.

Everything just fell into place from there.

My depression faded, I'm not that socially anxious anymore, and as I'm preparing my new schedule for a new semester and the fillers and everything, I just felt happier. I'm one of those people who put meaning to whatever I do or whatever happens to me, and the battle of the bands was it.The new schedule and fillers were it. I am still going to a new uni but I have to make these last months worth it.

It's a new beginning and it's great. It feels great too.

  • Mood: Lazy
  • Listening to: Hello-SHINee X3
  • Reading: Haruki Murakami's Norwegian Wood
  • Watching: my crappy writing coming to life

hey.




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Clockchat Featured By Owner Nov 16, 2014
Hello! Thank you so much for making a favorite out of my deviation "Remover!" That was a looong time ago, but I've been practically extinct from dA up until yesterday, and couldn't recall if I had thanked you...Better safe than sorry! Thanks a plenty, friend!
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Happy birthday, honey. :heart:
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brokengod--veins Featured By Owner Oct 17, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so, so much! <3
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You're welcome! :heart:
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I rly hope you a had sweet birthday.
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brokengod--veins Featured By Owner Oct 17, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you! :hug:
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Happy Birthday! :cake: :hug:
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brokengod--veins Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks! <3
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Happy birthday! I hope you're having a wonderful day. :huggle:
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Thank you so much! ^^
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